A couple of days ago I had to go to the far side of town – just me, no kids – and what with roadworks at Haymarket and my convalescent car, I chose to do it this way: car, train, taxi – taxi, train car. All done at a rush to try and be back in time to support BSD collecting children from school. Once upon a time I wouldn’t have thought twice about it, but it felt like quite an adventure.
When I left the commuting life to have children I felt – as many women do – that I had lost a lot of personal freedom and that I was no longer in control of my own space and time. What struck me on my journey day was that I didn’t feel any sense of freedom, but I did feel that I still wasn’t in control of my own space and time. I was at the whim of train-drivers, taxis drivers, recalcitrant ticket machines and temporary traffic lights. The only difference was that I was out of the house, and given the recent rain, that was no blessing.
How much of our understanding of ‘being stuck at home with a baby’ is perception, rather than reality?
Now if I’d actually had the space time (and weather) to go somewhere of my own choosing, without the constant awareness that someone was filling in for me back at home – now *that* might have felt like real freedom!